Choose!  I am standing here at this very scary crossroad, which is more like a cliff, and there are two ways to get off this cliff.  One way to get off this cliff is to walk across the bridge which I had been planning to use.  The other way is to jump.  Both will get me to a similar destination but the bridge will draw the process out much longer than it needs to be.  So I stand here.  Absolutely terrified of making a decision but knowing that I have to because this entity called time forces me to move on.  Choose!  The only downside to the jump is that I might be jumping at the wrong time but other than that the landing should be easy and the road though just as difficult seems to make more sense.  Trying not to let my current emotions sway my decision is difficult.  However, I know this has been set before me for a reason.  I don’t want to jump because the grass is greener.  I want to jump because the grass is mine.  I don’t want to walk across the bridge because it seems easier or because that is what I had been planning to do.  I want to walk across because that is the best way to get where I am going.  Time is pushing at my back…I could start walking the bridge and then jump, delaying my decision for a while.  But then I will have have wasted very precious time.  Choose!

No, I’m not depressed.  Really just telling you about the urgency I am feeling about making a decision.  Life is so interesting and exciting.  Pray that God will show me which way to get where I am going. 

Ashley