(Just follow me, I don’t really know where this is going to go…but it’s going to go somewhere.)

You know, I have been thinking a lot lately, I think I’ve decided that one of the hardest things to figure out and pin down is who I am.  Everytime I get to the point where I know myself God changes something around or shows me a different perspective and I am stirred again.  The Bible says, “Oh Lord, You have searched me and known me.  You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand  my thought from afar.  You scrutinize my path and my lying down, and are intimately aquainted with all my ways.  Even before there is a word on my tongue, behold, O Lord, You know it all.” 

I don’t know about you guys, but I know that I often try to justify myself to God, like I have to explain everything I do and everything I say.  However, we don’t have to, He already knows the reason for us saying this or doing that.  Whether the reason is good or bad He knows it, even if you don’t.  “Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is too high, I cannot attain to it.”  To be this honestly known, whether you like it or not, is a desire that has been built into us.  Some hide from this part of themselves.  Others try to find something other than God that can do this, which is impossible.  It is in this that we find a great root of our dependence on God.  He completes everything, He makes everything  make sense.  He takes all the little pieces (the tragedy, the joy, the frustrations, the memories) and He strings them together and creates…He creates me…He creates you.  No person can do this for us…not even us.  

The line at the top of my site…*smile*…says “Now that I’m at Your feet will You look at me with some imagination.”  God listens to everything we say, everything we pray and He answers each thing in His own time and in His own way.  *smiles again*  With His imagination, He sees in me more than anyone could have ever imagined, and if I submit myself to His watchful eye and gracious hands I will come out with more than I am capable of, and the same goes for you. 

I may be saying this for only me…and this may not make sense…but may it find you well.

Beautifully Surrendered,
Ashley