So, this past weekend I was told by “my man” that he was capable of coming home for a break, which was has not been the case for the past three months. This means that he is and can come home for certain in September. I’m very excited. But, despite my questioning, he refuses to tell me when it is that he is actually coming for his break. *smile* This does make it exciting but VERY out of my control. He could literally show up at anytime and in any place. I mean he does know where I am on a regular basis and knows my family well enough to be able to find me quickly. In my heart, I kinda freaked out. Because though I know that he could careless how “put together” I am, I care. I mean, for someone who means that much to you, you want to look good. Especially if they haven’t seen you in months. So then I had this dilemma. Do I try from now on to look “put together” and my best or do I just do what I normally do and apologize if he shows up and I just so happen to be bummin’ it that day?
As I was thinking about this, dreaming about this a little, I realized (probably through God’s guiding) that this was very much how the bride of Christ feels in her spirit about the return of her Bridegroom, how I as the bride of Christ should feel about His return. I mean I should think about it. I should anticipate it and delight in it. I mean how many of you guys look forward to the return of our King, our Love? We should, and it should make our day looking forward to it! Then, off of that, I began to think about whether or not my Love would catch me bummin’ it or looking beautiful. But I realized that just with Kris coming home any changes that I make have to be permanent ones or else they are just a front, just a mask. And if I honestly love my Bridegroom as much as I say I do, then I will live it out fully and completely and not only in anticipation of His coming home to me. So either I have to work to incorporate these things into my actual daily life or I would have to just be what I am now…though we should always be working to change from glory to glory. It’s the balance of it all, to be as real and ready as possible. It’s about living out the love everyday…all day.
So are we ready? Is She ready? For Him to come home to her? Am I ready, for Him to come home to me?
very nice; so i guess you decided to look your best every day, yes?
In so many ways…*smile*