This morning I went to THE art cell…yes, Esther, THE art cell. It was very difficult to me, as it always is. I mean, I am used to calling myself artistic when not around true artists (or at least artists that would feel comfortable enough to critique me)…but when I am around true artists I freak out and get so self-conscious I can create nothing. Anyway, I wrote something in response to our assignment for the day. The assignment was to write about being satisfied, this was my response.
The Journey to Satisfaction
“The Lord is my Shepard I shall not want…He maketh me lie down in green pastures…He restores my soul.”
Broken, busted, tattered and stained
Will I ever be satisfied again?
I’ve run so far and refused so long
“I can’t do this!” I cry
Wait for a while, still no reply
Why is this so hard?
What am I so afraid?
Clearly the Father made a way.
I lay down in darkness too tired to go on.
Closing my eyes to shut out the cold
And then, from not where a hand comes through.
Strong and mighty, peace in the form of fingers wraps under my belly, lifting me up.
Held in His arms I hear His voice reverberate through His chest.
*”Little lamb, it’s time that you rest.”*
I give no refusal since that is all I long for
Pulled even tight still He answers the question that I cannot bear to ask.
*”Don’t you know I love you? Don’t you know I care?
Don’t you know I’ll always be here? And I find you lovely.”*
Wrapped in the sweetness of all that He is
Beautiful hymns and songs pouring from His lips.
The pain is eased away with every note until all the bandages are on and the abrasive balm has been poured.
I lay at His feet and sleep…Finally I sleep.
*Indicates lines from Shawn McDonald song “Lovely”
Eating My Way Through It 
ASHLEY!! I miss you! how far away from north Carolina is ohio? okay call me bye
it would SWEET if..I mean..do you think I could just hop on over after school gets out in July? what do you think..and then we could drive back together!!! ooo..ok bye
yeah alot lately…I was really debating weather or not to post this. But I had to get it out somehow. sorry. I wasn’t really expecting anyone to re-ply either. whats your e-mail?
oh wait nvm sry I didn’t see your email at the bottom.
Art cell was good. I wish we could have gotten a bit deeper, though… I felt a bit better after going, but felt shallow. You ever had that feeling? I want someone to try to figure me out… That is i guess my reasoning for being quiet and seperated today. Not in self-pity, but trying to figure myself out in some areas and then getting past myself. *sigh* you did nothing wrong, I just felt restless and relationshipless while siting there, before running I mean. Need to get out and be, and spend time with people who figure me out (if anyone, God) and get past the surface of a me. Does this mean I want you to push, no, just be. Love yah!Hannah
wow.i like it…..it’s pretty much awesome.you’re amazing Ashley,love ya,Sarah ><>
hey i can’t check my e-mail our computer is acting crazy…soo but i think i will be able to email you tommrow cause ill be at my grandmas…just wanted to let you know
Art Cell rocks! This is true! I’m not a writer, but it does make me excited when I can put something together and make it make sense… or at least sound interesting.
Yes, you did very well. Fit right in! I was so tickled to have you girls share your lists in your way. I wish for all those with daughters to come WITH them into something like this. You get to meet them in a whole new way… a wonderful way!
~beJeweled