I don’t know if any of you have ever looked back on your past and marveled, not at how far you have come but how far you have not fallen. Sometimes I look back and seriously wonder how it is that I am who I am. And you know, sometimes it doesn’t always take huge and traumatic things to occur in order for you to build up the same types of pains as someone who has been through huge and traumatic things. Sometimes it just takes believing the lies that the enemy speaks in your ear about who you are and what you’ve done…who they are and what they’s done. That’s all it takes. That’s why Christians are just as screwed up as everyone else because they believe in the wrong voice. We really need to learn to stand up and learn to believe the Father and what He says about us. We need to show the enemy what God meant when He said, “and he will crush your head.” God has definitely empowered us to be like Him so let’s take the authority that He freely gives us and take our places next to Him as princes and princesses.
Actually, that last little bit was not what I came to write. Haha! I just came to say that obviously God has a plan for me. Obviously He has a plan for you. Or you would not have made it this far. I mean it’s like looking at how much it take for a human being to be concieved and brought to term…too many things have to line up just right for it to work out…it takes so much of God’s planning, that it’s really hard to deny that He isn’t a part of the process. The same really is with becoming and staying a Christian. We could all be in so many different places (due to the lies and situations of life) but due to deciding on our part…due to His hand picking us…we are Living with eternal life. We are going from glory to glory. He has a plan. Amazing really. “The enemy hates you alot,” I told my seven year olds two weeks ago, “But the God loves you just as much and more.” It’s so true. From a young age, I was choosen. I was sheltered from alot of things, alot of the things that were standing right on my door to take me. But He was standing there covering me, even when no one else was. Even when I wanted to walk away from Him, He made sure that I knew that He was still standing right there with me loving me through my bad decisions. There is no God like Him (that’s for sure)! And He who began a good work in me, at my conception, will be faithful and just to complete it!
AMEN!
Beauty Fully Surrendered,
Ashley
ohh Ashman…how could i ever be angry with you?? 🙂 Im not that angry person you first met remember that. I was angry at a situation that had happened which made me feel creative so i wrote it out..well pooped it out… I’m happy that when a guy treats me badly i know its not my fault or anything..that it is him who is treating me badly therefore giving me a right to be a little upset. You know? I usually just blame myself and inflict more pain on me on top of what he has already done… i think thats is what i was saying and that is the anger you were feeling towards the guy (Andy btw). I’m talking to Jeremy again and its awesome and it makes me happy..why does he have to live in OH too?? Maybe i should move there ya know? jkjkAs for saying you know dont preach and i need jesus..what i meant was I preach to myself enough in my head..you know..i know i need to spend more time with Him..and i’m upset that i havent cuz i know i would feel better, be a better person etc…u knowanyways i love you!! :)AmyB